Crazy Tubes in the ears

Okay it has been a crazy few weeks. My daughter is finally out of hot water. We had surgery done on her ears. They told me there really shouldn't be any bleeding only a pink twinge or discoloration. Then why did my daughter have blood coming out of her ears for 5 days afterwards? The doctors told me to wait it out that it will get better. Now she is up crying and holding the ear that blead the worst. I am at my wits end worrying and the I am going to demand that the doctor see her if it doesn't get better by monday. I have read that this sometimes happens. But I don't want to see it happen to my little girl. She is talking so much better and we can see a big difference in her in just a few days however the pain seems to be getting worse. They told me to keep putting the drops in even after the 3 days because she was bleeding. We just finished a seven day dose twice daily and I don't have anymore, We are alternating between Tylenol and Ibeprofin because her pain is so bad and it keeps getting worse. Lord love a duck and help me to proceed. If it doesn't get better I am going to do whatever it takes to get my little girl seen. Even is I have to sit in the waiting room until I am seen. These were the best doctors and Istill have faith but sometimes its not all cut and dried like the doctors believe. They have to check it out what is it going to hurt to look into a little girls ears and see for themselves everything is fine instead of telling me over the phone not to worry. I don't do blood and have blood come out of one of her ears is making my heart stop and panic attacks are not easy to fend off when you are holding a crying little girl. I keep holding onto her but it isn't getting better!

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What I was doing ten years ago. Go to Math class at NC State University

Five things on my to do list for today:
1. Work with the 2 year old on her language skills
2 Work with the 4 year old on her studdy work from school
3. Help my daughter memorize the 10 commandments for her graduation
4. Clean the bathrooms
5. Fix Dinner, bathe the children, put them to bed

Things I would do if I were a billionaire: Pay off all of my familys debts, start a college fund for our family's children, Buy my husband the truck he wants, and invest the rest after d onating to the church so they can finish the biulding and not have to worry about supplies for a while.

3 Bad Habits: Procrastination, Eating, Sleeping

Five places I have lived Only Five? Norfolk, Va; Virginia Beach, VA; Moyock, NC; Raleigh, NC, Glaucester, VA

Five jobs I have had:
Inventory clerk, lifegaurd, rose/shooter girl at nightclubs, head of housekeeping for a Vacation Realty Company, Business manager for a Large Furniture Store
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Okay I am having trouble! My Head just won't compute and is all jumble up!

I admit I am having trouble! I am trying to understand and maybe it has been my different upbringing that is causing me trouble. Okay I am being told that Hannah Montanna is bad. That we shouldn't let our kids view anything she does because of one indescretion (which she apologized for). I have even been told that she is heading on the same path as Britney Spears (whom I have never heard apologize). My question why is she bad. She had pictures taken to be published in a magazine. To my knowledge most kids don't read Vanity Fair. It has an older audience than the teeny boppers. She took a picture with her Father and they are saying that it is incestious. If that is the case then my children are in serious trouble. They jump on their father, they play ball with their father. I have even seen teenage boys have more contact on the football field or the basketball court than she had with her father. To make an innocent picture filthy? Why? Because she looks more grown up and parents are now starting to realize that she is at an age where kids want to look more grown up? I think this whole thing is getting out of hand.

When do we over protect our children? When do you cross the line of being overprotective and not protective enough? Should we shield our children from everything until they turn 18. I am not understanding this concept.

Okay here is another question I am having trouble with. Jesus went out among the sinners and scum of the earth, right? We need to strive to be more like Jesus in our actions of love and to preach the word of the gospil everywhere. We are Christ Followers. Yet, we need to protect and shelter our children and prepare them for Jesus and to keep them pure to be in Jesus' good grace. That we shouldn't expose them to the dirt of society becuase this would make them unclean. Your friends should be other christians, all others should be acquaintances. Home school until they are 18 and then send them out into the world with those that you approve of.

This is a direct quote from the parental newsletter:

Life with little ones can leave parents in day-to-day survival mode.
Calendars and to-do lists are essential for navigating countless
appointments, chores, school activities, work obligations, and more.
Your immediate goals might range from potty-training a toddler to
planning your summer schedules. But what’s your ultimate goal as
parents? Are you merely trying to prepare kids for adulthood?

While children’s earthly future is definitely
important, our main focus must be children’s
eternal future. It can be hard to keep that in mind
with each day’s pressures and obligations. But
what really matters is making sure our children
spend eternity with Jesus. To do that:

and then it goes on how to schedule your Bible study time and to not overload your child, and how to preveiw all that children are exposed to. I agree with it. Except for the part about keeping our children shielded from it. I think they need to be taught that there is bad stuff in the world and that this is not how we act, that even though these people do the bad stuff we do not follow them, but we do show them love. We do not agree but that we love them and that we will show them the way. Isn't that what being a christ follower is all about? Not to mention a good parent? Where is the line of religous nut and abuser of children or sinner? Our church preaches that all of the desciples were sinners of some sort yet they served a purpose to Jesus in getting the word out. I have alot to think about. I will continue to struggle with my questions.

Getting Even with a Dye Job

A note to all husbands,

Please do not make your wives mad. It is not nice to call a woman a cun... t I am having trouble even writing the word. Please do not call us a B.tch. It is not nice. When we ask you not to eat tommorow nights dinner as a snack, please don't do it. Please do not let all of the crabs in the crab pot go. Does it matter to me that you are trying to quit smoking? Yes, but behaving as a child is not getting you anywhere. All it does is cause your family to have to eat Ramen for dinner a couple of nights. And I am not letting your children have to eat it. I am serving it to you when you come home since you were so wasteful of our limited supplies. And when I tell you I have mixed up the hair dyes (accidently on purpose) and that your hair is going to be red. Please go wash it out like you were asked. Do not sit on the sofa until it the dye dries in your hair to be spiteful. It only makes me want to laugh at you for being so childish. You can be mad at me all you want. I told you to wash it out before it even set and there wouldn't have been a color change. To me this is you wanting it to be this way so that you can be mad at me. That gives you a reason to be mad because you had to quit smoking. So I will sit here and laugh while you go about your day with a baseball cap covering your streak of very red hair. Next time you never know it might be Nair like your friends suggested.

P.S. Don't do it in front of your friends ever again either. They have no sympathy for you! Because you were acting like a total jerk and they heard me tell you to wash it out. Then they saw you sit on the couch like a spoiled little boy!

Unique

The definition of Unique:

1.
existing as the only one or as the sole example; single; solitary in type or characteristics: a unique copy of an ancient manuscript.
2.
having no like or equal; unparalleled; incomparable: Bach was unique in his handling of counterpoint.
3.
limited in occurrence to a given class, situation, or area: a species unique to Australia.
4.
limited to a single outcome or result; without alternative possibilities: Certain types of problems have unique solutions.
5.
not typical; unusual: She has a very unique smile.
noun
6.
the embodiment of unique characteristics; the only specimen of a given kind: The unique is also the improbable.
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I guess you are wondering what is withthe definition. I know most of us have heard the saying every person is unique. My question is why do we hold everyone to the same standards? The bible it says this is how we should act. This is how we should strive to live our life! This is good. I agree. When we fail does that give people the right to talk or to show or think they are better than we are (to me this is throwing stones)? even God didn't do that. Maybe I am getting this wrong, but every story that i have heard of or read if the person was truely sorry for an action then God forgave them and told them to sin no more. True evil that is punished is the kind that the person feels like they have done no wrong when the action has hurt others or they did it out of enjoyment. Do you enjoy talking bad about people, whether they are celebrities, the poor people down the street, or the very nice old couple that lives accross the street that just can't keep up with their cat? We are people we are not gods. We make mistakes. So what is the difference between doing the good Lord's work and holding someone accountable to the Lord's moral standards? Maybe we need to look at both sides of the story before we throw stones!

Where do you go when there is no Hope or Help?

I have found a job recently. I am hoping to start work soon. However I feel as if I am getting the run around. She hasn't returned my calls as to when I start. Just tell me do I have a job or not. If not I will keep looking no big deal but don't tell me I have it and then not call me. I just want to make enough money to pay my bills and to live simply. We have cut out everything. We have 2 vehicles both are really old and paid off; We have basic tv on satelite as it is cheaper than Cable, I have basic telephone and internet combined for $50. I have sold anything that is ours and isn't nailed down to the floor. We are cutting everything out yet we still have no money saved. Not enough money for our bills. Housing is going up, electric, water, food, and gas are going up. What is a person to do when the paycheck doesn't go up. We don't go out to eat, our weekly outing is to church or god for bid my mother inlaws. We have doctor bills out our butt. My grocery budget with diapers and formula is $150 biweekly. That's not easy. That is using coupons. Do the math that is $300 a month, $150 biweekly, $75 a week, $10.72, $3.57 a meal (3 meals a day) for 5 (five) people. How are we supposed to make it if that is what we are doing. There is only so much ramen and rice and peanut butter that a person can handle. We are not destitute by any means. Just extremely financially stressed. People (again people you would think I would quit listening to people) say that you shouldn't have had kids. Well I hate to tell you this however, when the good lord decides for you to have children you are going to have children. I have been on birth control with all 3 of my children when they were conceived and evidently I am in that .1% of all birth controls that say you are going to get pregnant. Once it was an IUD. It's okay because I love children and I will do what I can. People also tell me to cut back. What can I cut back, please tell me. I have nothing left to sell, nothing left to cut back. I splurged and fixed a pot of coffee this morning and had a cup. I make my own tea and kool-aid. We do not drink sodas or store bought drinks, we drink water from the tap ( my mother-in-law has assured me that we will all die from drinking it), outings include walks to the park (we don't want to drive and waste gas), walks to friends houses, we have been having potluck with our friends to save on food as well and still get a little variety. I don't want government handouts but I do believe that these companies who are out for the money need to give alittle back. Did you know that where we live that the average cost of a big can of powdered baby formula is $25.99 a can. That feeds my daughter for one week. The average price for a box of diapers is $27.99 that lasts us 2 weeks. I order most of my stuff online because it is cheaper and sometimes I can find deals with free shipping. And some of the online stores will take coupons.
Now please tell ME that I have to cut back and be more frugal and to quit having more children. Sometimes it is not an option. I would also like to say that it outrages me to have to pay for illegal immigrants to have food and to get free schooling and medicines when I am struggling like this. I had applied for W.I.C. in the hopes that it would help with the formula. We have excellent health insurance that I pay an arm and a leg for we just needed a little assistance. We make $100 too much to qualify. For a family of 5 you have to make under $44641 a year, $3721 a month, $859 a week to qualify. This is before taxes. Did you know after taxes most people live off of $34,373.57. Deduct your taxes and insurance, medicaid and social security from your yearly income. How much do you live off of?

What does a person do?

I am so tired of people. First they tell me what to do and why! I listen decide what I want to do and then I will do it. Then they tell me I am wrong.

First scenario: My daughter Alexius was 3 this year I wanted to wait and hold her back a year until she was 4. (She turned 4 in October before the deadline so they accepted her at 3). But no everyone said that she had to go school because she was more than ready. She is already reading, she knows her colors and everything, she can write. I know all this because I am the one that sat with her day after day teaching her no one else did. So I listened to them and I enrolled her in school. I did it because I doubted myself as to whether she was ready mentally or not. Then the school tells me she is really young and that she is having a hard time and that I need to work with her more. We were already working with her so they just suggested that we do it differently okay no problem. Problem solved. Right? Wrong. I am now a bad mother because I forced my child to go to school before she was ready. They are so wrong. I am glad that I put her into school early because you know what she has excelled. She is one of the smartest kids there. And she is attending the second school in the county. They tell me I have to keep her in the private school next year but I have decide to go public with my little beauty. It will be less trauma. The private school only goes to 2nd grade and then she would have to go to public anyway. There really isn't any very good private schools in the area that actually keep up with state curriculum except for the pre schools. She is fine. I am tired of feeling second rate. When it comes to raising my children.

2nd Scenario:
My middle daughter can't hear. They told me that I was making this up that she was fine that she just didn't want to hear what I had to say. I watch my daughter read lips. I watch her not talk. I hear her sounds. I am the one that wakes up with her every night because she is screaming. I am the one that holds her while she crys for hours on end holding her ears because the medicine is not working. I am the one that has to force the medicine in her because she doesn;t want to take it. I am the one that takes her to the doctors and holds her while they examine her. She can't HEAR I AM TELLING YOU TWITS I know what is going on. Then they tell me that she has a chance of going deaf. Of course well why didn't it get caught sooner is what I am asked. I don't know. I did everything the doctors told me to do. I even had 3 different opinions when I figured it wasn't working the other way. Now she is going in for tubes in the ears. No big deal right? Wrong! I am wrong again. They should try drops in the ears, there is other meds out there. Well you know what people there is but this will take the pain away right away and this is what the doctors say is going to be the end result even if we do try to go those routes. He said why put her through pain longer than necessary. I agree. I signed the papers for the procedure. Then I was told to talk to the speach therapist and I did. I am going with there reccomendations. Isn't this what I am supposed to do? Of course not. I am pushing my daughter to much . She can't possibly learn all that like they say. I need to wait until she goes to school and they can teach her. Since I can't do it. I can do it but what's the point in specialists if you don't listen?

Moral of all this venting. Don't listen to those ney sayers and do what you think is best. Don't let them bother you and tell them to go suck a toillet.

Good luck to all of you in your endevers.

My health

Since I have been diagnosed with Diabetes it seems my health is just silently falling apart. I am constantly worried that something new is going to come up. They say stress is a silent killer and that may be my problem. Let me tell you a little about my health. I have been anemic since basically the day I was born. I drained my mother of all her iron while she was pregnant with me and I have been low ever since. I used to constantly pass out because my iron kept getting so low. My mother never really took care of it and as a growing little girl it was always topsy turvy. It went up and it went down but my hemoglobin never seemed to get above a 10. Average I believe is supposed to be between 11 and 12. mine averages around 9.2 and it is not unusual for it be an 8 something. My blood pressure has always been good if a little on the low side. I was always under weight until I got pregnant and then I went over but I am not grossly over weight. I am 20 pounds or so over weight. But I was recently diagnosed with gestational diabetes while pregnant with my last child. Only the diabetes didn't go away. I am now considered Type 2 Diabetic. Since this dianosis I have been working out and I hope to lose the weight. They say that if I can get my weight back down then there is a chance that I won't be diabetic anymore. I have been working out and watching my meals. The only thing is that I don't eat unhealthy. I have been seeing a diatician and my meals and what I am eating is fine. I am actually eating more as a diabetic than I did when I was just anemic. I am on 4 iron pills a day and 2 Metformin pills. My Cholesterol is not good. It is on the border of being bad. The one thing that I don't do that I probably should have started a long time before this is exercise. I take my vitamins every day. I just started exercising recently by taking a kickboxing class. Well I have to go my girls are in need of me.